Better in Time

As I sit and reflect on the days since I last posted my life a lot comes to mind. Over the past two weeks I have been dealing with a desire for the past. Through this though I have been asked some hard questions about this subject and others. At the end of the day I want whats best for others. I want them to be happy, to be pointed and lead and pursued. All of these things have caused me to think twice, to step back and ask why. Why am I back at this point? Why can I just not let go? Why did I not stand strong and fight for it instead of comparing to something completely different and wishing that it was similar? I don't have the answers to these questions but I am seeking them. All that I can do now is know that it WILL be better in time and that I must be patient and wait.
While remaining patient is one of my greatest struggles, the Lord has been answering prayers throughout my life as I have waited. My roommate and I are going to start being intentional about life! I cannot even begin to tell you how excited this makes me as all that I have wanted since I have been in Virginia is to go deep with I guy that I share life with. I know that this will be hard at times but I also know how great it will be to be challenged and prayed for and loved by someone that I see everyday.
I am so excited for the Fall! Even though there are so many unknowns in my life right now the gifts that I have been given for the year ahead make me feel just a little more steady. I don't know what is going to happen, but I am excited and ready to find the path that I am searching and waiting to follow.

357 Miles

357 miles, that is all that separates two different lives that I have experienced. This past weekend I went back to Lexington KY for a wedding and had a blast! It was bitter sweet though as I remembered all the reasons that I love the place that I called home for three years. It was amazing to be back and see friends that I lead in high school as a Young Life leader that I can now call true friends and know that it is way more than me being their leader. I also got to see friends from college that I haven't gotten to see or talk with much since I moved. Now, the hard part about this is that I love these people, we have laughed, cried, and everything in between together. As I caught up with people at the wedding reception I got a lot of questions about what I was going to be doing and if I was ever going to move back. Though it was hard I answered these questions with the answers that I know now which was maybe in a year. As I continue to figure out my place in property staff and if it fits the gifts that God has given me I have thought more and more about other directions. I will be patient and prayerful for the next year and see were the Lord is leading my heart. Lexington VA or Lexington KY or anywhere else will only come on His guidance.

Live Your Life

In the past few weeks I have been pushed and challenged to be who I am and where I am. My life is not crazy, its not sad, but it is hard. I have an amazing community around me that in their own ways push me to be better and try to live life with me. While this is one of the better parts of living here, it always has not been that way. I also have experienced the same situation with my job. I love my job...well maybe just Friday and Saturday and May through August. This is a work in progress though, one year later and I have learned a lot, I don't have know where I am going and that's okay. One thing that a great friend reminded me of that has helped with this is my impatience. As I sit here and think about many decisions that I have made, a lot of them came from my lack of patience. When it comes down to this community and my job I DO NOT want to have this impatience anymore! I am done, I am giving and waiting faithfully for guidance and support. I may not have it all figured out, but one thing I do know is that I live here, this is my life and I need to live it hear and now!

You're gonna be a shining star, fancy clothes, fancy car-ars.
And then you'll see, you're gonna go far.
Cause everyone knows, who you are-are.
So live your life, ay ay ay.
Instead of chasing that paper.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Ain't got no time for no haters
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
No telling where it'll take you.
Just live your life (Oh!), ay ay ay.
Cause I'm a paper chaser.
Just living my life.