2 Years Later

So here we are two years later and I am realizing how much I need to get "back on the horse" when it comes to this blog! A lot has happened over the past two years that has continued to shape and form who I am and where I am at. The past two weeks have possibly been two of the more interesting periods though as I have been challenged in my communication, or lack there of. Im not sure what to do with this as I see the truth but I cant quite rap my head around why I am in this place right now. I know that I have not always communicated well but over the past three years it was one area that I tried to rest in knowing that there may be crap going on but I can at least talk about it and get it out or I can express cares and fears openly. As I sit here right now I know that this is not true of myself right now. When did this change? Why did it change? How do I get back to where I was? These are the questions that have been running through my head and that I get frustrated of because I don't have an answer.

I want to love well and right now I am not!